Eat the bread, drink the wine. The more bread you eat, and the more wine you drink, the more anointed-er you are. Be sure you go to the memorial with an empty stomach! Better yet, bring some unleavened bread and wine of your own so you don't have to depend on the cheapskates at your congregation to supply enough to suit you.
Bola, are you a baptized JW? If so, for how many years have you been a baptized JW?
How is it that after all this time as a baptized JW, you do not know the answer to this most basic question?
I think you are a FRAUD, and I could not blame your elders if they thought you were a FRAUD also.
Maybe you should try MENSA or the FREEMASONS or the JEDI KNIGHTS.